Been a while

I went to church today. Arrived a little late and missed the first two readings... but really, church is all about the gospel, homily, and eucharist, right? I know, I know-- I'll get my butt to church on time next week.

Today in the homily Father John introduced the idea that people who most value something worldly have the most to lose, while those who put their faith first will never be at a loss. Worldly things are bound to perish but there is more to be lost when someone loses sight of God, and that is his soul. It is especially difficult today not to get caught up with anything, simply because there are so many distractions. Internet, TV, porn, shopping, celebrities, cars, careers, technology, and the list can go on and on. It is our responsibility now more than ever to shut out the noise and escape from these temptations, for the sake of our very souls.

I must admit that I have recently fallen into a spell of college life. I want to go out. I want the "college experience" that will be forever lost to me once I graduate and have to get a job. I never really had a full high school experience, and I don't want to say the same for my time here at UF. I finally got a boyfriend-- my first one ever-- and I am doing my best not to be caught up with this boy, but it is hard not to. When i first started seeing him, I remember going to church alot that week. I know God would not give me anything more than I can handle, but I can't decide whether my relationship with him is a one of God's gifts or a temptation straight from the Devil. Whatever it may be, it is a test of my fortitude. I cannot lose myself in any "moments," no matter how natural they are.

I've always wondered how I would respond under situations where my virtue is tested. I don't think having a boyfriend has changed me, for better or for worse, but rather it has revealed to me who I've been all along. I am happy to say that I have not become a hypocrite to anything I believe, and I know now that I won't just fall victim to physical passions. Well, it hasn't been long that I've been tested, and I still have a long way to go, so I hope in days to come I don't abandon my faith and lose myself.